Whisper Loud

New New Blog

2011-05-16T12:14:00.001-04:00

I'm actually now found at The Chronicles of Kristin.

Oh. Riiight.

2010-03-13T19:15:00.000-05:00

When I said I was coming back here... I really meant that I'm going over there.

http://freshwaterwords.wordpress.com

One of Those Things

2009-03-20T14:36:00.001-04:00

I'm coming back here.

Very soon.

It's Aliiiiive

2008-05-28T20:24:00.004-04:00

I knew I'd go for a long time without posting at some moment. I didn't think it'd be so early into my blog. Buuut, it happens. Figured I should update on my BFS year things. Since that is, mostly, what this blog covers when I'm not rambling or completely silent. ;)

The Big. I'm trying to get a job. I got accepted as a paid intern somewhere, but alas, the timing is all wrong for that. They need too much of me at a time where I can't/couldn't give it to them. So none of that for now. I applied at Borders... hoping that works out. If not, I'll figure out something else. :) I've been driving a lot more lately. My parents bought me a car maybe a month or so ago (Yaaay!) so that's made it easier. So hopefully sometime in June I'll be getting my license. I'm in the process of setting up my photography site. A friend is letting me have hosting off of him, so I just need to set things up and get going with that. Which is exciting and good because I have to make business cards and get it all ready for July. The entire month of July I'll have my photos displayed in a local Starbucks! Woo hoo! =D I'm really looking forward to that. ^_^

The Fun. I've been to a few concerts... Beth Dillon ones. And gotten some pretty great shots. I still want to get more and I still want to go to the Underground. But we'll see what happens. :) I've done a few photoshoots in new places... Indiana, a few places around here that I haven't been to before. So I think we can officially cross that off the list. ^_^ I'm still trying to work out the Bethany Dillon website deal. It seems like I'll update something small but then too much time goes by before I update again. So once I get back from my Brazil trip I'll try to get that going.

The Scary. I decided that I'm going to Antonelli College starting in September. So I'll be living at home and driving over there. :) It's a great little school and I'm really excited to start there. I went to an open house there a few weeks back and got to play a bit in the darkroom. Fun stuff.

So yeah. That's pretty much my update for now. Hopefully I'll be updating this better from now on. I get the urge to write semi-often, so you should be hearing from me soonish. I leave for Brazil on June 5th (first flight on an airplane AND first time out of the country!) so it's a shame that's not on my BFS list. I could've crossed off two major ones. :P

Jones Soda Labels

2008-02-21T19:42:00.002-05:00

For a long while now, I've thought 'man, it'd be so cool to get one of my pictures on a Jones Soda label!' And now I'm working to make that a reality. Soo, if you'd be the most awesome of awesome people and help me by voting for any or all of my three images, that would be fabulous.

Go HERE, HERE, and/or HERE to see my photos. Click the little vote button and rank my shots accordingly. Viola!

Thanks, loves! =)

Snow & Self Portraits

2008-02-20T18:53:00.006-05:00

So much has happened since my last entry. It's funny how fast time goes when you're enjoying yourself. And I've definitely been enjoying myself.

February 9th I turned 18. I got to go to a Bethany Dillon concert the night before with my sister, my dad, and a good friend of ours. It was incredible. It was actually a college conference at the Southern Baptist Theological Seminary in Louisville, so there was a session where a speaker gave a message. It was really good... totally relevant and I'd been thinking about what he'd said prior to, so that was neat. Then there was an amazing session of worship led by Shane & Shane. That was a blessing through and through. Voices reverberated around me, mixed with my own and created this sweet, sweet sound for Jesus. Mmm. I love times like that. Then there were the concert sessions, which were fabulous. David Nasser spoke for a little bit as he's on the Vision of You tour with the Shanes, Starfield & Beth. He's quite an interesting guy. What he said was also very, very relevant and in line with what had been said before. He talked about meeting needs and showing the love of God, something I've been striving to do myself lately. I wrote in my journal as soon as I woke up the next morning so I wouldn't forget what he said. It rang so true to my heart. After the show we found Beth getting her PJs out of a suitcase beside the tour bus, so we even go to talk to her for a bit.

The next day we mostly lounged around... the road trip the night before meant no sleep until 2 in the morning. But it was totally worth it. That night my sister, the same dear friend as before, dear friend's dear boyfriend, and I had a good convo at Starbucks. It was great to just talk with people and enjoy friend-time. Sunday after church my family and I met up with my friend, Lizz, and her family and my friend Rosa at Olive Garden and had a wonderful time with lunching. Mm... that was good.

That week next week, I went to school on Monday. Then there were two snowdays, so I babysat all day and made a good amount of money. A really, really good amount of money. But on Wednesday I realized I had a fever and started feeling sick. So Thursday I stayed home. Friday was a half day at school, so I went in for that and ended up bringing Lizz and Rosa to my house for lunch. Lizz spent the night and the next day we went and picked up my lovely friend Blair. For my birthday present she wanted to take me to my favorite restaurant and pay for it. So we went and met up with Rachael, another friend, and ate at my favorite "mama y papa" Mexican restaurant. The food was delicious, I had an awesome time. I even got sang to (again! they did that at Olive Garden, too.) and one of the waitresses shoved whipped cream up my nose! ha! That was an experience...

And that brings us to this week. I still felt sick during that weekend, so I tried to sleep off the sickness on Sat. afternoon. Didn't work. Stayed home all day Sunday. Again Monday. And Tuesday. I went to the doctor Tuesday for a check up and to get a shot, and had them look at me. She said if I feel my sinuses to call and she'll get me medicine.

And today there was a snow day. I was so glad... I'm feeling a bit better today, but having another day to rest before plunging back into school and rushing to make everything up was wonderful. I got some homework done, took some portraits out in the snow [see the one attached to this post], and got some photos up on facebook that I've been meaning to get up for weeks now. So it's been a good day. Tomorrow I'll be back in school with medicine in my system and we'll see how it goes! =)

Whew. Now I'm exhausted of typing. I'll have a new post soon about my BFS year. Because I can cross off some things! =D

the delay

2008-01-15T08:25:00.000-05:00

Well, I got up at 6:48 am like I'm supposed to. I got dressed, ate my breakfast, studied for my government test, and walked out the door with the fam to go to school. We get there and the parking lot is almost entirely deserted. Turns out I had an hour delay. (Why? I'm not really sure... maybe because of the cold? It's about seventeen degrees out... not a lot of snow on the ground, though.)

So here I am, doing a few little things here and there to pass the time because I don't have time to go back to sleep before I have to leave. Unexpected delays... they're really something.

But I have enjoyed my time here. I got to read my engage the journey passages (we're in Job... read chapters 35-37 today. Great book, really. It's amazing what you can learn when you just read. Simply amazing.), watch a video, check my facebook and e-mail.... all that good stuff.

And now I listen to Bethany Dillon, my favorite artist. I've missed listening to her... my family will only let me listen to her CDs for so long without complaining, you see. I just don't get fed up with really good music, but I guess they do. So I humor them. Sometimes. *wink* The completely awesome thing is this-- February 8th I get to see Beth live again. That's the day before my birthday, so I'm super excited. It will also be concert number 10. Doubly exciting. I can't wait. I can, however, order the tickets... I need to do that.

I'm seriously considering going to Brazil this summer. My youth group is taking 15 students to Brazil for about 10 days in June. I've never been out of the country before (well, to Canada when I was about 5 years old, but I don't really remember it...) and I've never been on an airplane. So it'd be a big deal if I were to go. The more I think about it, the more I want to go. I'm a little nervous about it, yes, but... I don't know. It's like God's been preparing me for this for awhile now. And so I may just have to move, first to the meeting on Sunday. Then to the next stage and the next until I find myself being blessed by helping missionaries in Brazil. [I will admit, though, that I was bummed when the internet reminded me that they speak Portuguese in Brazil and not Spanish. I was practicing my Spanish... saying things like 'can I take a picture of you?' and such. Ah well, it's one of three languages fairly widely spoken there, so maybe I'll get to use what I've learned the past 3 years after all. =P]

Ok... I'm off to school now! Have a good day, one and all.

BFS Updates

2008-01-07T20:51:00.000-05:00

I thought I'd take this time, the end of week one of 2008 approaching quickly... to update my blog with my big, fun scary year updates. I need to remind myself of what I'm supposed to be working on [and anyone who may be reading this... I might need a push now and again!]

The Big...

I've been keeping up with Engage the Journey and it's such a blessing to me! Reading what everyone is gathering from the text each day is incredibly helpful and causes me to think more about what I've read and how it applies to me. We're currently in Job, reading about a man who suffered so much and still remained faithful, and it's just amazing to see what could happen in my own life and how I can be better.

As far as getting my work displayed at Starbucks goes, I grabbed a card at my nearest place and am going to e-mail soon to see what I'll need to do to make that a reality. It's exciting and big, of course, so I'll keep you updated with what happens. =)

Walking my dog hasn't started yet... it's been so cold! But tomorrow it's supposed to be warm so I may just have to go for a little walk to start myself off on the right foot.

The Fun...

My sister and I keep talking about the South Carolina trip, which is great because I'm excited to do that. Since we have friends there, it'll be fairly reasonable for us to just go. So that'll be this summer sometime, if all goes well.

My blog has, obviously, been started and I feel like I'm doing fairly well with updates so far. As time goes on, the frequency of the updates may dwindle. But as long as it doesn't get too far down, we'll be good.

The next thing I want to do on the fun list is get my Bethany Dillon website up and running again. It drives me crazy that it's just sitting there! Unfortunately I've got some things that I really need to do first, but I'm hoping that I'll get some time this weekend to work on it and get the second half finished and talk to my co-web about helping me fix a few things that need tweaking. =)

The Scary...

I have been accepted to two schools so far-- the University of Evansville and Hallmark Institute of Photography. I need to call someone at the admissions office of Antonelli College because that's a real possibility for me at this point. The chances of me affording Hallmark are slim and I need to decide what I'm doing before it's too late to do what I really want to do. So if you would, pray for that. I need a clear decision made soon, so I'm hoping it'll just hit me like a ton of bricks soon. I feel like I may know... but it's barely there. I have to act if I'll be able to finally decide. Wish me luck... =)

I've been looking into area photographers to see about second shooting a wedding. There are a few that I may be able to ask, if nothing else. This goal may be harder to meet than some of my others, but what's the point if you don't have something to really reach for, right? =)

Hibernation Day

2008-01-02T16:25:00.000-05:00

Last night I said it. I told everyone in my family that I wasn't going to school today. Snow day, I said. I'll be honest... I only said it because I was desperately wanting one. But then I woke up this morning and found that it had snowed. And it had snowed enough to cancel school.

And for that, I am thankful. I got a wonderful hibernation day. A day to sit inside, relax, finish the papers I was meaning to do last night for school... all the things that I needed just a little more time for. Mmm.

Enjoy your day, whether you be hibernating or not.

Hibernation Day
[Jars of Clay]

I don't want to get out of bed
You don't want to go out in the snow
We don't have to do the things Eskimos do
Let's have a hibernation day, me and you

The snow is climbing up the door
(so much higher than before)
The weatherman is sure there will be more
(I don't want to go out in the snow)
These blankets make a cozy little cave just for two
Let's have a hibernation day

I love the snap of winter air
and the snowflakes on my face
How the snowdrifts make the cars
Disappear without a trace
I'll take a day dressed in pajamas
in a room without a view
If I can spend the day curled up next to you,
next to you (next to you)

I don't want to get out of bed
You don't want to go out in the snow
(It's so cold outside)
Let's have a hibernation day
We don't have to go out in the snow
Let's have a hibernation day, me and you

Engage: Rest.

2008-01-01T14:24:00.000-05:00

Day one of Engage the Journey.
Genesis 1-3.

It impresses me, causes an awed smile to cross my face, to read that the Spirit of God was moving on the formless earth [Genesis 1:2]. There's just something about hearing that God is and was moving that touches me. I think it's the fact that I can see Him moving in my own life, then turn around and hear what He's doing in someone else's life as well. God was moving. God is moving.

After creating the world... the heavens and earth, light and darkness, sun and moon and stars, animals and humans, the ones made after Him... God rested. He finished a task and then He stopped and rested. I think that this is one thing that I struggle with... a lot. I'm a busy person, and I feel like I almost always am a busy person. But I hate to not do anything after doing everything. I get ideas that I want to run with and I start running. Then as I run, I spot something of interest. I decide to run more so I can do both. Then the projects and ideas and obligations and concerns pile up. I enjoy them, mostly, so I don't mind. But what about being still? With all the noise how am I to reflect? To evaluate clearly? I don't think I can without resting. Seeing that He rested- God, the Creator of all, rested- (and obviously wanted me to know He rested or it wouldn't have been recorded) well, that would mean it's okay for me to do that same, now wouldn't it? So amidst my busyness, my list of things to do and see and be... I have to remember to rest. To "be still and know" that He is God. Rest.

Bone of my bone and flesh of my flesh. [Gen. 2:23] I heard someone say once that those words weren't romantic... that they were very 'manly' and not something that a woman would hear and appreciate. I don't think that's true. It's like poetry... it's like saying 'You're a part of me. Heart of my heart. Spirit of my spirit.' And I think that is lovely.

Hiding from God is something that I think most of us can understand if we think about it. I mean, haven't we all done something that we've been ashamed of? Something that we don't want to acknowledge happened, but hide under some fig leaves and hope He didn't see? Of course it never works... He sees it all. And He loves us anyway. So why try to hide? I don't want to hide. Honesty has become something I value a lot... hiding isn't being honest. I guess you could say that to hide is to lie. So I want to try to break away from dressing in my fig leaves after I've sinned and know God wants to speak to me... I want to be like Him. And I have to willingly show Him what He already knows I am, give up my pride and my shame, and let His love and forgiveness wash over me. Cleansing. Renewal. No leaves. Just me and Him.

My Big, Fun, Scary Year...

2008-01-01T13:45:00.000-05:00

I love NaNoWriMo... a lot. And the extra things that people there think to do make me smile. So I've decided to participate in "The Year of Doing Big, Fun, Scary Things Together" during 2008. All you do is make specific goals for yourself to meet during the year and work to meet them.

I'm going to chronicle my progress on this blog... so you'll be seeing everything from my thoughts for Engage the Journey, some photography, NaNo, school, and just my thoughts in general. Believe it or not, running this blog is something I can cross off of the list.

If you're participating, leave me a comment! I'd love to keep up with your blog as well, whether it has to do with the BFS year or not. =)

Here's my list, separated by how I view each goal.

Big
-Read through the Bible chronologically via Engage the Journey.
-Get a job before/for the summer.
-Get my driver’s license before the summer.
-Have my photos/art work displayed at Starbucks via My Home Brew.
-Start setting up a website for my photography, complete with price lists, logo, portfolio, and blog so I can start booking gigs.
-Finish my Alias fanfiction, Goodnight, and find a way to get it to the people who were reading it on SD-1.
-Start walking my dog on a regular basis—good for him, good for me.

Fun
-Get some good photos from concerts to go in my portfolio, at least one of the concerts at the Underground.
-Have a photoshoot somewhere that’s unique for me, like in another state or area that I’m unfamiliar with.
-Visit a friends in South Carolina this summer.
-Get and keep my Bethany Dillon website up and running no matter what random computer troubles occur.
-Get my personal blog together and running.
-Start rewriting my NaNo from this year and keep editing the one from ’05.
-Participate and win NaNoWriMo ’08, no matter what my schedule looks like.

Scary
-Decide which college/school I’m going to in the fall and get ready for my freshman year.
-Second shoot for an area wedding photographer at a wedding at least once.

A New Year...

2007-12-31T21:48:00.000-05:00

I'll be back soon.

New year; new posts.

Dans chaque fin, il y un debut.
In every end, there is also a beginning.

Masking Our Idols

2007-07-24T23:27:00.000-04:00

I was watching a movie the other day. While I was watching it, I picked up on a conversation that struck me.

......

Ricky Bobby [praying]: Dear tiny infant Jesus...
Carley Bobby: Hey, um... you know sweetie, Jesus did grow up. You don't always have to call him baby. It's a bit odd and off puttin' to pray to a baby.
Ricky Bobby: Well look, I like the Christmas Jesus best, and I'm sayin grace. When you say grace, you can say it to grown up Jesus, or teenage Jesus, or bearded Jesus, or whoever you want.

Cal Noughton, Jr.: I like to think of Jesus like with giant eagles wings, and singin' lead vocals for Lynyrd Skynyrd with like an angel band and I'm in the front row and I'm hammered drunk!

....

What struck me about this was the notion that we can pick what kind of Jesus we like best and decide that that's the Jesus we want to live with and get to know. One problem with that idea is it's not Jesus we're getting to know or wanting. The desire is for whatever we've made Him to be in our minds. If we could make Him be OK with our sins and ideas of "fun," then we could participate in whatever we wanted without consequences or guilt.

It's foolish to think we can mold Jesus to be whoever we want Him to be. The Bible is clear about who He is. It is also clear that we are to mold to who He wants us to be. It has never been and will never be the other way around. So why do we think we can change Him to fit our desires? Why do we think we can change Jesus Christ when we've been told that He doesn't change?

[Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. Hebrews 13:8 (NIV).]

We're at this place in society where whatever we want individually is accepted by others. No one wants to be offensive. We think that because we want to live a certain way it's fine if we do. We've come to a place where truth is being brushed off as 'a truth' instead of 'the truth.' This is the place where we imagine Christ to be someone who wants us to live the way we want to live. We become assured that our actions must be acceptable because our individual ideas of how He is fit with what we do.

But believing that is believing a lie.

In all actuality, by following a made-up version of Jesus, we're following a different god altogether. We can't claim to be following Jesus if we're clearly doing something that He'd disapprove of. What we're really following is sin. We're walking down a dangerous road thinking that we're fine while the enemy laughs at our ignorance. Jesus alone is God. There is no other god that can save us; no one else has power over eternity. The Bible is clear that we are to serve Jesus Christ alone.

[Be careful not to forget the covenant of the LORD your God that he made with you; do not make for yourselves an idol in the form of anything the LORD your God has forbidden. For the LORD your God is a consuming fire, a jealous God. Deuteronomy 4:23-24 (NIV).]

This jealousy speaks of His desire for us. God desires us, the filthiest of sinners. He loves us more than we can fathom. We have to drop the idols that we pretend are fit to exist in our lives. We have to turn around and rediscover who Jesus really is. We have Someone whose arms are open wide, ready to receive us. We need Him. When will we turn from our masked idols and run into His arms?